I Want....

It's safe to say I'm not a great blogger. I WANT to be though. The problem with me is I WANT to do and be so many things. I WANT to be a great cook and make amazing dinners every night my husband could brag about to his friends. I WANT to keep an immaculate house and have it decorated just like a magazine. I WANT to be the best Mom ever and take my kids to every event... read, play, relax, go on walks, to the park ( all while keeping them clean and stylin'.) I WANT to sew and craft all day and come up with cute things no one has ever thought of and I WANT it to be perfect! I WANT to be incredibly healthy and fit. I WANT to work out everyday and only put healthy things into my body. I WANT to restore old furniture and be so proud of the once ugly things I have made beautiful again. I WANT to learn how to type!! Yes that's right I don't know how! This post is being sent to you from 3 of my right hand fingers and 1 from my left. I WANT to be organized and have a spot for every teeny tiny thing I own. I WANT to be kind and serve my community, I WANT to be friendly to everyone. I WANT to be thrifty and save for my future. I WANT to Visit with family and friends often. I WANT to have a career and be successful. I WANT to be great at doing hair and work at a high end salon with an amazing clientele. I WANT to be a great wife and be there for my husband whenever he needs me. I WANT to be handy and know how to use all the power tools and be able to fix or make anything. I WANT to have a beautiful yard and garden. I want to be very spiritual and an example to others. I WANT to be a good neighbor.

I do try hard with some of these things, others I think about often and wish I was. I am such an all or nothing person and with blogging over the past year I've gone with nothing. There have been many times I have thought about blogging this or that, but then I talk myself out of it. I felt like I couldn't just start blogging again after all this time with out a recap (and it would have to be an amazing post to make up that much time). Well I'm going to start right here. I know everyone loves pictures, in the past I felt I couldn't put up a post without them. I've just told myself if I feel like writing about something I'm going to post it. I don't know if anyone out there cares, but I'm doing it for me anyway.

Right now I'm going to try to balance and juggle the best I can. I HOPE to become a great (accomplished) person someday. I know I will NEVER have it all together. Most of all though I WANT to find JOY in my journey!! I've been given so much and I AM grateful!